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Monday, July 18, 2011

Intermediate ICU (late posts)

I have to apologize for not updating more as we were in the hospital those last few days.  I want to document Nicholas' progress for his own knowledge so he can read about it someday, but also to keep our friends and family in the loop, as it is difficult to stay in close touch with you all.  It also really helps me to write about what is happening...it makes it concrete. 

I am going to write about the last few days in the Intermediate ICU....


Nicholas hanging out with Mom

We got transferred upstairs to 3West (Intermediate ICU for cardiac patients) on Thursday afternoon.  Nicholas was in better spirits as each day passed.  He started joking around each time I tried to take a picture, closing his eyes.  This is one of about 15 that I took and each time he would close his eyes or cover them with his hands!

It was great to start having bits of my boy come back as he recovered.

On Friday, we started the day with another chest x-ray and rounds from the team.  Nicholas especially dislikes having tape removed from his skin, and this day he had to have his incision bandage removed and chest tube dressing changed.  He also had to have his "art-line" and his "I-J line" removed.  The I-J is this super long catheter-like device that goes several inches down in his jugular artery (intra-jugular).  Nicholas is terrified of seeing his own blood and he is afraid his skin will peel off with all the tape holding things in place.  I got really annoyed and protective of him when anyone comes in and starts ripping the tape off without preparing him and using adhesive desolver first.  His nurse tried to do the "faster is less pain" method and I had to stop her to make her do it the way he is more comfortable with.  Poor Nic...he hates all that tape.


Nicholas eating his favorite--
Chocolate donut!

On Saturday Nicholas was doing better and better.  He enjoyed his favorite, a chocolate donut that morning. 
Again, a chest x-ray and rounds with his team and everything looks great.  His LV has not shown any signs of stress and his gradient is consistent with the measurement in surgery. 

Nicholas resting soundly after his chest tube was removed






The doctor told us that as soon as his chest tube quit putting out 50 mL or less of fluid in one 24 hour period, we would be good to go home.  On Saturday morning his total for that last 24 hours was exactly 50mL, so the team started collecting other evidence that things were progressing well.  The doctor came in one minute, and next thing you know he is preparing to take out the chest tube!  I was in the shower at that time and Lorenzo rushed in and told me what was happening.  I rushed out and made them double-check that the time was right, because once the tube is out, we leave 24 hours later.  It was very stressful, but obvious once it was out that Nicholas was so much more comfortable! 
 
My happy boy, glad to leave and go home!

On Sunday Nicholas had another chest x-ray and everything looked great.  The team wanted to have one last echo to verify that the LV was still holding up and that there was no fluid accumulation since the chest tube came out.  Apparently everything looked good, because we were officially discharged at about 2pm on Sunday!

We made a quick stop at a local toy store and let Nicholas pick out anything he wanted.  He decided on a stegasaurus and a triceratops.  He loves dinosaurs and he deserved it!  What a strong little boy we have!  Looking at this picture here I am so glad my sweet boy still has a sparkle in his eyes and the most handsome smile! 

You'll notice the dressing on his neck...it is now Monday night and he still won't let us get near it.  I have had to bargain all of the tape removal with him.  He pinky promised me I can remove that and the one other last dressing from his chest tube removal tomorrow.  We'll see!


Nicholas with his "Beads of Courage"

Nic's "Beads of Courage"
Each bead represents a procedure he underwent.

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Still in CVICU

Nic tossing and turning as he sleeps.
It is about 1 p.m. and I just got a text from Beau asking if I have updated the blog yet, so I figure I better get typing!  We are still in the CVICU.  Nicholas has had his round of tests today....chest x-ray, bloodwork, echo....and we have heard that we will possibly transfer upstairs either this afternoon or tomorrow morning.  The team explained to us that usually with PA banding the LV will show signs of stress after 48-72 hours post op, so even though Nic is doing well, that doesn't guarantee a move upstairs.  Lorenzo and I have been sharing a parent's room to sleep in just down the hall from Nicholas' room, so that has been really nice to have a comfortable, quiet, dark place to sleep.  If we move upstairs, only one of us can stay with him overnight, and it is much busier up there.  So I wouldn't really mind just staying put for another night down here in CVICU.

I think a little bit of his personality is starting to come out.  He is pretty much terrified of anyone who wears so much as scrubs and a stethascope.  He needs either me or Lorenzo very nearby whenever they even need to listen to his heart or flush his lines.  He would probably be happy as a clam (well almost) if I could just climb up in bed and snuggle him 24 hours a day.  He has started to say that he is done with this, that he really just wants to get out of this place and go home.  I quote, "let's sail this ship and get out of here".  That's my Nicholas.

Sleeping soundly, for the moment....
One thing that is new is that he woke up twice with night terrors last night and even as he is sleeping now, he is shaking in his sleep.  I remember he did this for weeks following his last surgery and that is how he became a permanent fixture in our bed for the last 6 months.  So I'm going to presume that when we do go home, that our queen size bed will be a crowded one because I'm sure he's going to want to be in there with us, and I bet Sienna will have some serious seperation anxiety after being away from us for so long.  Maybe we should just go get a king???  Ha ha, I wish!

I will let you know when I know more....

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

A Sad Boy Here

I figure I had better get a post on here so everybody doesn't start to worry....All is well here, it has just been a day that's been hard to take a few minutes for myself to get this posted.

Nicholas had an x-ray early this morning, more bloodwork throughout the day, and an echo this afternoon.  Everything apparently looks really good.  They took him off of dopamine this afternoon, which means that he will lose a "line", or in other words, one of his IV's. 

I guess the only significant thing to report is that he is super depressed.  It is practically impossible to get him to smile, let alone not cry everytime he talks to us.  He is very sensitive this time.  I am pretty sure that last time he was a lot more mobile by now....this time he has tears in his eyes every time they so much as approach him.  He always does exactly what he is told to do, but he is trying very hard to hide his emotions and as one of the nurses said, he acts very "stoic". 

He was up most of the night last night, and when I fell asleep at his bedside from about 5:45 to 7:15 this morning, he looked at me and asked why I fell asleep and left him alone.  He is very scared and just needs constant hand holding and protection.  His nurse last night was this big, dark lady who was on the gruff side of things and I think he was scared of her.  So for me to fall asleep while he was under her care was a really big deal to him.  Needless to say, now he has finally fallen asleep this afternoon for the last hour or so and is sleeping soundly. 

We will be here in CVICU at least until tomorrow.  I'll let you know as soon as possible of any changes.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Extubated!!!

Nicholas was extubated today at about 2 pm.  He seems quite depressed and confused.  His pain seems to be under control, but he is very sad.  For about an hour before the extubation, they had to stop some of his pain meds, so I am glad that at least he says he isn't in pain.  He is part of a morphine study, too, which officially starts at 3 pm.  It is to study the rate at which oral morphine is absorbed and they will test how quickly it is metabolized.  So hopefully he is able to stay comfortable. 

I think the rest of the plan for today is to keep him comfortable and then after he has been resting for a few hours, they will attempt to allow him some liquids.  This could be difficult, though, considering he doesn't like popsicles or jello. If he doesn't have nausea issues, then a few hours later he will get some real food.  I will make sure we have a brownie or chocolate cookie on hand!  Real food! 


So happy to see those big blue eyes!

They also started a cool new thing here.  There is this organization that provides beads for the kids here and Nicholas has a string of letters for his name waiting for him.  Then he gets a specific bead for each procedure that he has and he will add it to his strand, which will tell his story of this journey that he continues with his heart.

I will update when I can....now that he is more awake and extubated, he will have more needs from me!  He is such a brave boy!

Monday, July 11, 2011

So Far So Good

We have been up here in CVICU for a while now, and I will try to update Nicholas' status....

So far his vitals are stable, but the doctors want to leave the breathing tube in until tomorrow so his body can rest and so they can closely monitor his Left Ventricle for any stress, i.e. LV heart failure.  He apparently didn't have much bleeding and everything was pretty much non-eventful up to this point. 

I feel both relief and fear.  I am so glad that Nicholas made it through surgery without any problems.  It hasn't gotten any easier each time we leave him to be put under general anesthesia, and to have either invasive tests or worse, open heart surgery.  Just to see his sweet face brings a lot of peace to my heart.  I hope that his LV can handle the new load placed upon it and that he will have a speedy recovery like the last time we were here. 

I feel a bit of fear because now I know that with a successful PA Band, comes the Double Switch down the road.  That scares me.  But on the other hand it gives me hope.  How can all of these emotions be so tightly woven together??? 

Nicholas in CV-ICU
I love my boy.  I am so thankful to be sitting next to him right now.  Please pray for us.  Whether you are religious, spiritual, or whatever else, please keep Nicholas in your thoughts as he continues on this journey. 

Surgery Day





Nicholas and Daddy working on a project before surgery

So here we are again...in the family waiting room at LPCH.  Funny that the first time we were here, I thought that all the families were here for open heart surgery, too.  But there are kids' families awaiting tonsillectomies, ear tubes, and other things. 

I started out today feeling annoyed because I thought we would accompany Nicholas to the O.R. like last time and say goodbye as they put him to sleep.  But this volunteer guy came as they were wheeling him out of the pre-op area and took us away, and I was pretty upset that I didn't get to be with him.  Hopefully Nicholas won't remember any of these minor details, but I guess I just thought that heaven forbid, something didn't go right, I wanted to be with my son until the very last moment.  Anyway.....

We talked to Dr. Hanley right before he went into surgery and we got the reassurance we were looking for, that yes, we are doing the right thing, and that Nicholas is in such amazing hands under Dr. Hanley's care.


Nicholas keeping busy before surgery

Nicholas and Mommy snuggling before surgery
So we went to grab a bite of breakfast after all this and just as we were finishing, Dr. Hanley comes walking through the cafeteria!  I waved him over and he sat down and explained to us that everything went very well, and that he would be getting transferred up to CVICU soon.  He said he was pleasantly surprised, though, because at the heart cath 5 weeks ago, Nic's LV was pumping at 50mmHg and today it was 70mmHg!  He said that Nicholas had "grown into" his first band since we were here in June and for that reason, he didn't have to tighten the band as much as anticipated.  He said that we would still be looking at waiting another 6 months or so to determine how everything looks for the double switch down the road.  Apparently Nicholas' blood pressure is 90mmHg and he said if we could reach that number in these coming 6 months, then he would likely be ready for the DS after this PA banding and wouldn't likely need another tightening.  Such great news!  (I think I have all the numbers right...I will try to find out if I have misunderstood...but whatever way it is, it is good news!)


Friday, July 8, 2011

Driving down to LPCH

We are heading down to pre op....Nicholas is sound asleep.  I am feeling rather emotional.  I dont know if one ever gets used to these things.  I thought that it would be easier this time, but its not.  I am sad that Beau and Sienna are leaving to Nys house, far away.  But I do find a little relief having Beau go with Sienna.  She will be glad for it, too,as will Ny and Rich, Im sure.
This morning Nicholas was not excited to leave.  He begged us to wait untl "next weekend" to go to Stanford.  We have talked openly about this next surgery, but I don't think he really understands.
We are making a stop at the dinosaur museum after our appointments at the hospital.  He will enjoy that, I'm sure.  He insisted on wearing his t-rex slippers; he always makes people smile as he tromps through the halls looking like a ferocious dinosaur.  He is pretty sure all the nurses are quite afraid of him.
I'll keep you posted....
On our way to pre-op....nervous.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Surgery Looming

We will be heading to LPCH on this coming Friday, July 8 for pre-op, then Nicholas will have his second Pulmonary Artery Banding surgery on Monday, July 11.  He has been home for this last week and will be home this coming week, in somewhat "isolation" to hopefully be as healthy as possible going into this. 

I feel like I have been somewhat of a space cadet lately....I have a very hard time focusing and I feel like my mind wanders and I am worrying and worrying all the time.  I know that we need to do this, but it is so hard trying to get ready for this again.  We have been lightly discussing "surgery" and this time we will hopefully prepare Nicholas better.  We have been collecting some "projects" that he can keep himself busy with while he recovers in the hospital, and he seems like he understands that these are for post surgery, not for now. 

I think I have all the arrangements made for the other kids, but this also brings a lot of stress to my mind.  I am most worried about Sienna, as she is little and a little crazy!  I keep telling Ny that I trust her to take care of Sienna, but that I absolutely do not trust Sienna!  She is a busy little girl and has no fear of anything....I hope she will be ok.

I will try to update often....thanks for any prayers!